Wow..!

So I am officially an Abraham Lincoln High School graduate!

Monday, May 24, 2011 - Day of Senior Dinner Dance! In the morning, we had rehearsals at 9. Had Cou Fu Jai drive me to school. It ended at like 11 something so me, Annie, Vivian, Annissa, Mey, Solana, and Allen went to Chabaa to eat Thai food. Went to Teaway to kill time cus we had to pick up our cap and gown at around 2:30. Bused back to school. Waited in line. My appointment was supposed to be at 3:30, but I wanted to get it early so that I can get home early to get ready for later on that day. Balzer and Martha were being bitches! Rod let me in to get my year thing for the tassel.. He coo :) Viv drove me home. Showered and did my makeup. Didn't do hair. Rushed out the door. Got there at 6:03. Kevin scared me saying I can't go in cus I'm late but he was just playing.. THANK GOODNESS! T'was a fun night! Feet were killing me tho! Danced with Wesley in the end. Viv drove me home again.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011 - Grad rehearsals at Bill Graham Civic Auditorium! Walked with Wesley for the second time and I walked too fast -.-

Wednesday, May 25, 2011 - GRADUATION DAY!! Got up at 5:30 am and still didn't have enough time to do my hair >_> Left the house at 7:05 or 7:10 and got there at around 7:20 or 7:25. Was HELLA scared that I was gonna be late! It was sprinkling :( When we got inside, Annissa needed to find bobbi pins cus her cap was too loose. Ms. Martinez was passing them out.. LOL! Wesley gave me a really big hug :) I was so scared I was gonna trip on stage!! Thank goodness I didn't tho! LOL! After we walked out of the auditorium, my tears just fell when I saw Annie and Carmen. We walked outside and it was raining so I couldn't find a lot of people for pictures -__- hella sucks!! Went home afterwards.

Thursday, May 26, 2011 - Went to DMV at 7:35 am when I was supposed to go at like 7:15 am? It was cus mom was taking too long to get ready. I wanted to go early to practice driving around for a bit. We got there at like 7:50 am or something and I drove around for 5 mins then I drove into the parking lot and parked. Did pretty well ;) Waited in line and felt like I was missing something. And guess what? I was -__- I didn't have my Certification of Completion with me and thought it was at home and was about to go home to look for it. Goh found it in the glove department and we rushed back inside. Was able to take the teste at around 8:20 am when my appointment was for 8:10 am, but whatevs! Drove into the test lane and was nervous. My driving proctor was an African American lady named Adrian(?) and she was nice and didn't look intimidating like this one Asian lady haha. Failed at releasing the parking break -__- But the test went pretty well.. I don't think I backed up in a straight line but she didn't mark off any points for that. I got a total of 13 wrong! 2 more and I would've failed haha. I was so happy! Goh went to Krispy Kreme with mom and waited for me at the corner of the block thingy haha. I got hot chocolate and ate some donut holes. We went straight to Chinatown afterwards to go to the bank. I think we went home after.. Don't really rememeber.. But Shirley came over later at like 9 pm to do hw and left at around 11 pm.

Friday, May 27, 2011 - GOT A HAIRCUTT! :D Short layers so it makes it SO easy to fool ppl. Hence my Facebook picture!! LOL!
Here is before:


Here is after:


Here is my current default on Facebook:

The comments on it are SOOO funny! People actually think I would cut my hair that short!! LOLOL!

My last long hair picture for now! Peeeeace!<33

I'm Ready!

Senior Dinner Dance is 2m! I went to dt today with Jacy and Jenny to find my outfit for 2m ^__^ SUCCESS! I'm wearing a light pink animal print t-shirt, black pencil skirt, black 3/4 sleeves blazer, and my beloved black booties with studs and buckles. I'M SO EXCITED! After shopping we went to Jacy's house to make spaghetti and golden butter cake. Jacy gave me a Missha BB Cream in No. 21 cus it was too light for her. She has no. 23 too but I let Jenny have it.

I'm painting my nails in a lavender color later! Yay for pastel colors!!

YAY!

MY DRIVING IS GETTING SO MUCH BETTER! I drove for an hour around the Daly City DMV and I've improved so much! I don't touch the curb anymore AND I can back up pretty straight ^__^ I drive more stable now too! :D

I feel like this was the first time that..

Wow.. SO much has happened ever since my last post.. So one day, stupid me decided to tell him that he should give up on me cus at that time, I felt like my feelings for him were gone and I couldn't see him being anymore than a friend. I still remember that this was at 1 in the morning, and we were talking on aim like how we always did. He told me "well that's too bad for you, cus I'm falling for you." After this talk, he started to drift away.. He just wasn't the same guy that I first started talking to anymore. He seemed.. mean. When I first met him, he was a very caring and sweet guy that would watch out for my feelings. But this one day, this ONE day, he was PURPOSELY trying to get me mad. I seriously thought he didn't wanna talk to me anymore cus of what I told him. I thought he wanted me to get mad at him so that he'll have an excuse to stop talking to me for good. And he knew I was mad.. I think this was when he stopped saying goodmorning and goodnight to me. I honestly do miss the days he would tell me this.. About 3 or 4 days later, I told him that I miss our talks we would have every night. He didn't believe me. He didn't believe me cus I told him that I can't see him being anymore than friends just a few days ago and now I'm telling him I miss him?! Yes, I did. And I think the reason why was because I found out that I have become attached to him. How did I end up with this conclusion? The day when I thought he was purposely being mean to me, I actually got teary eyed. The very next day at around 9, I balled my eyes out. I have never, NEVER, cried over a guy before. He was the first. I don't quite remember exactly why I was crying so much.. I guess it was just cus I was hiding all my emotions inside of me and I couldn't hold them in any longer.. I went into the shower so that my parents wouldn't find out I was crying. I was SOBBING. And I couldn't stop.. I was reminiscing and thought about all the times we had pointless conversations that would make me happy.. I thought about the countless times he told me "I miss you wendylam.". I wanted to know, did he really mean that? Is he still thinking about me even after I told him that? I feel like this was the first time I cried cus of a guy.. But eventually, he told me he missed me too. He asked me why my feelings changed so quick and I told him that it never changed, I just never wanted to admit it. We started talking again after this. Everything went back to the way it used to be for I'd say.. 2 or 3 weeks.

But on the day of the championship game, I noticed that it seemed like he didn't wanna talk to me. He still said goodnight and goodmorning. It just didn't feel right tho.. He didn't talk to me for the whole day on Saturday, and I didn't talk to him cus I didn't wanna seem clingy. So on Sunday, it was the same. At the end of the day, I aimed him and asked why he wasn't talking to me. I don't remember what he said but all I can remember him saying was, "I like how I kinda stop talking to you, and you try to talk to me." This made me realize that he really was trying to get rid of me. Somewhere deep down, I thought this was his revenge. I thought maybe he was doing this cus I hurt him the first time so now he wants me to feel how he felt when I told him my feelings that one night. We stopped talking until Tuesday. He gave me his prom picture and the very same day, I texted him asking if he wanted a prom picture from me if Annie was gonna give him one. He said "do you even ask to ask?" On Tuesday, he sent me a link to Jason Chen's "Tong Hua" and we had a small talk. On Wednesday, I sent him a link to Joseph Vincent's new video. Small talk again.. On Thursday, I asked if he still wanted a letter from me. He said he did and I told him to find me the next day. I forgot to bring it yesterday.. I saw him at school before graduation rehearsals and told him that I forgot to bring it. When we were lining up, I saw him looking at me a few times cus our homeroom was across from each other. He didn't say hi to me or anything. Until the second time, he hit my head and I just looked at him.

After school, I hung out with Alex for almost 3 hours. About 2 hours in, Alex asked him if he wanted to come to SB. He went to Palega so we walked there from Lolocup. When we got there, we saw him playing ball alone. I gave him my insert to sign and he said he was gonna take it home. He also told me that he injured his thumb but I didn't believe him. Turns out he actually did. He wrote a few words too.. I felt bad for not believing him. He played for a while then sat down next to me, asking how me and the fob was, if I talked to him. I told him we don't talk anymore and he asked why. I told him that I don't ask him questions about his life so don't ask me about mine. Alex and I left about 10 mins later. And that was it.

I sorta wish he'd see this.. so he'll know that I miss him..