WHY THE HELL AM I FUCKING LIVING??

I feel like I get treated like a piece of shit. I can never have ANYTHING with just ONE WORD from my brother to my mom. I was THIS close to getting an iPhone 4 today. Jay's friend already activated it and everything. STUPID ME decided to call my brother to see if I could keep it and he said no. He was like "Well if mom's paying it.." "SHE SAID SHE'S GONNA PAY" "But you don't even need it" WTLKJASLK;DFJASKL;DFJA;L My mom talked to him and said that it's only $15 and that she'll pay for it but my brother wanted the money. My mom told me to just sell it cus my brother would earn some money. Jay told him that they opened an apple in China and it retails for around $700, which was the price he wanted to sell it for in the beginning. So Jay's friend decided to buy it for $660. Now I'm stuck using my ugly phone again. I swear, my mom is ALWAYS FUCKING ON MY BROTHER'S SIDE. Never has she ONCE agreed with my opposing opinion with my brother.